Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Change #1: The Master List

An innocent comment from a friend on Facebook lead to on an internet search.  She wanted to know if anyone used a master cleaning list.  I went searching and found hundreds of choices.  I found one that I thought had potential for me.

I don't want house cleaning to continue to be this thing I do when people are coming over.  I am going to stop having anxiety about people seeing my mess.  Because I AM going to work towards reducing my mess.  Right now getting everything done on my master list seems completely overwhelming.  But if I keep chipping away at areas that need a lot of help, they will eventually become manageable.

I want to be clear that the originals came from Lovelaughterandlipstick.com.  Hailey did the creating and posted downloads, which can be found here.  I don't want anyone to think that I am trying to steal, pirate or copy her work. 

 I simplified and personalized this to my home and needs.  I'll be honest, Hailey seems to be a much neater person than I am.  I don't know if I could stay sane if I tried to follow her schedule to a tee.

Today was Day 2.  I started on week 2, because I accidentally saved my Week 2 over Week 1 and then I ran out of black ink for my printer.  Can you tell that my house is in severe need of a tighter reign?

Yesterday, I didn't do too bad of a job.  Today, sinus pain and pressure hit.  I brushed my teeth this morning and kept my child fed.  That's an accomplishment enough for me today.  Tomorrow is another day and I can try again.

I put a lot of pressure on myself to live up to some standard that I haven't articulated.  All that I know is that I just don't measure up.  I constantly see myself falling short.  I realize that by having this list, I could very well be setting myself up for failure.  I can look at the list and and berate myself for not getting every thing done.  I'm sure I will have nights or weeks where I will try to go down that path.

However, as I start this I'm giving myself the following permissions:
I am not perfect, I will not complete this list perfectly.
I am a wife and mother first, it is not my job to be the quintessential maid.
I can take my time, change happens gradually for everyone; including myself.

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